Genuine

These past weeks as ive been talking to God it has seemed that there is one thing he keeps bringing up to me. Its Love. Pure Genuine Love. I have to admit the pure genuine kind can in some cases be the hardest thing in the world to pull off. He's asked me to be a light to someone who i love. The thing about this particular case is that me being a light is one me laying down my feelings and putting them to the side, cause they are not whats most important. And in doing that hes asked me to be a one way accountability to him. Just a daily reminder to stay in touch with the God. The result of this im afraid is that my relationship with this particular person will never be the same. Cause Gods method in getting to him is honesty and nagging almost. But in a good way. I feel a bittersweet emotion. I am sad that my obedience means sacrificing a relationship that meant so much to me! But i am stoked because i know that God is working through me cause half the time i have no idea what i send or what im writing until after its sent and i re read. its trippy sometimes looking back and being like.. uhhhh i dont remember writing that! Its cool though at the same time. And i know that God is going to use him and is using him and wants to use him for greatness!

Genuine Love is sacrifice

is discipline

is letting go of somethings to let them grow

is being there

is forgiving

is doubtless

is pure

is shameless

is fulfilling

is happy

sometimes makes you feel sad

is great

is blameless

is patient

is kind

is accepting

is putting others before yourself

is giving endless amounts to everyone

This Love can only be received by devoting your life to God. Im working on it. But my goal is to Love like this. Even when it means giving up things i love. Its not about me its about God.

I had to get that off my chest. Just something ive been thinking about

Utter Happiness

This month has been amazing! God has come through on so many different levels. I feel as though i am closer with him than i ever have been. I owe a lot of that to a really amazing guy. He challenged me and pushed me to never settle for less than i deserve. I cant take credit and say i was just being a good christian. Cause that would be lying! God blessed me. Abundantly and i am awestruck! I really cant put into words how absolutely in love i am with God and his faithfulness. Its hard to keep God first in a relationship with a guy who you care so deeply for. But i think we did a pretty good job at that. Trusting God with everything is hard but also not impossible! God has been with the both of us throughout it all and i know that he will continue to stand by our side. Together and apart. And though we are apart right now i know that if God intended us to be together we will be. I have faith that if its what is right he'll bring us back to each other and it will be more amazing and fulfilling than when we first got together. I ask anyone who may read this (Doubt anyone reads my blog anyway but just in case) to pray for God to give me more patience and to continue to trust him with everything. Also pray for the amazing guy God blessed me with. God is Good. All the Time! God bless all of you and please let me know if you have any prayer requests. I love praying for people so lemme know! :)

God Speed