Valentines Day

This year was the first year i was able to Be a Valentine and HAVE a Valentine :) It was perfect! Brandon was able to come down to SAtown to celebrate my brothers Birthday with my family. When i met to pick him up and get the night going we spent some time alone and exchanged gifts. Lemme tell you... i have the sweetest most thoughtful boiii! Ive had these plain white shoes that ive been wanting my extremely talented boii to fancy up with his drawin skills and just when i thought he had forgotten and just decided not to do it... He surprised me with my newly improved swagged out awesome shoes!!! I LOVE THEM! :)

I love it most when i get things that people took time out of their day to make for me. I would much rather have a hand drawn picture made with crayons than a 5000 dollar material item that will eventually either go out of style, break, not fit, or GOD forbid i lose it! (ive been known to misplace a thing or two) I always feel so loved when people make things for me.

So it meant SOOOO much to me that he took the time out of his busy schedule to think of me. He will forever be my Valentine :)

I love you Brandon Chenoweth; though lately he has been known as Valentine. i guess i just cant get over the fact that the LORD has blessed me with my very own Valentine!!!!! :) I will never forget it; and it seems so silly. But for someone who has been thinking and praying for and loving a mysterious man that would one day be my husband that ive never met or seen its a BIG deal for me to have a Valentine that i hope and pray and dream of marrying. Hes perfect... And hes mine... So back off my single ladies <3 trust me... youre time WILL come!

Love your enemy

““You have heard that it was said, ‘YOU SHALL LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven; for He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.” Matthew 5:43-45

Been thinking a lot about past events and disagreements with others that have led to them seriously disliking me. This verse was very insightful for me today. As i ponder how others have a strong negative view of me; ive realized that though i know i am defined not by their words but by GODs i also recognize that pulling the "Good thing GOD loves you so i dont have to" card isnt how i am called; nor how i will respond.

So Bloggers... I hereby declare i will love those people... Because thats what Jesus would do. :)

In other news... I believe i have found an apartment! It is beautiful and wonderful and CHEAP!!! :) Its close to Brandon which is a plus. Close to 7 Starbucks... Which is also a plus. Close to the school i would go to if i get scholarships. Pretty much a win win win in my book :) Please pray with me that a 1 bedroom becomes available by March 2nd. That is the earliest possible date for April. Sooooo... I am trusting GOD. :) Well i hope everyones weeks are going great. I bid the farewell!

Terra!!!!

Finally going up north to visit my favorite lady in the world! Love my second family :) can't wait!

Dear GOD

Fill me with Joy you alone can provide. allow me to fully grasp and soak in your peace that I may live in harmony with you in my heart. Help me trust you better. Help me be better at reading studying understanding remembering and applying your word. Help me be an example. May your name be glorified. In my life at home at work with family with friends with Brandon. Help me remember I am loved. Help me to love you more and notice all you've done. Open my eyes that I may see your gorgeous works. Remove the fear from my heart and mind. Remind me I am protected.

Forgive me for all my trespasses. Forgive me from my distrust in you. Forgive me for sometimes forgetting you and all you've done.

I love you and long to love you more LORD.

Amen

Embracing Change

A new life is fast approaching. I am optimistic and relentlessly trying to get everything organized before it all launches. 59 days from now i will be an Austinite!!! Yes, that is a real thing! Not only will i be living there, It is a goal to get scholarships and go back to school to finish my degree. I have been searching for Apartments and i am praying this place i am going to look at Friday turns out as "The One." In my humble opinion, Apartments are like a spouse. They have to be perfect and fit all your personality traits in order for it to work out successfully! With my first apartment i could not do without ceiling fans, a gate, cheap, clean, balcony, nice community area and many many many MANY more stipulations. This go around i have 2 requirements. Washer and dryer connections, because i have a washer and dryer. AND Cheap. Of course i can clean it myself... LORD knows i will sanitize it regardless. Seems like washing clothes is not that big of a deal to Austinites... Seeing as how it is IMPOSSIBLE to find any apartments with connections in the actual apartment. Will NOT be washing my pantelones in a grungy washer room with other people... Staying in there for over an hour until they are done and then carrying ALL my laundry back to my house. 1. i am clumsy and could possibly drop all the clean clothes on the floor. 2. Dont want anyone to see my panties..............(long awkward pause)......... Sorry, just being honest in my blog. Sue me!

Pray for me people!

I am SO EXCITED!!!!!!!