First Week Of School!

In some ways i am happy to be back in school. Seeing all of my friends, Meeting twice a week with my bible study, Being a missionary. Its great i love it! But then there is the show schedule that comes up. And yes i LOVE performing. I do but when it consumes your life its a huge downer! Performing is important to me but Jesus is my priority! People have told me that i should leave NESA and go to Johnson because it would be a clean slate there and probably get more parts there because i am trained and what not... But NESA is my mission. I cant leave when it is in such need for people to spread the word and be a light... I love performing and when i first got accepted i thought it was because i was really talented. But now i know that that isn't the reason. I was accepted so that i could be a light in a dark place! I hate all the sin and heartache Satan is bringing to my school but i Love each and everyone of those people with everything that i am. And i hurt so badly to see them fall down this path of destruction. It breaks my heart! And everyday i go for them. I go for all of those boys and girls that are struggling with their sexuality, i go for the people who struggle with lust and self control, i go for those who need encouragement, i go to serve them in every way that i know possible! But at times i feel its to much for me to handle. Because I'm not trained in the missions field! I'm not someone who can bring out all this scripture that will work wonders in someone Else's life!! I wonder if I'm even making a difference! Everyone knows I'm a christian but i don't know if they know why! They know I'm different but i don't know if they think that's a good thing. They expect me to be strong all the time and never cry or be sad. I'm rambling about nothing so ill stop. But if you read this whole thing i can only ask one thing and that's for you to pray for me and my mission. I get so emotional and i take everything on my own shoulders! Please pray for the kids at NESA. Or if you have any advice... Everything is greatly appreciated!

NESA

Titania in Midsummer Nights Dream, Old Woman in Footnotes Junior Year

Translations for Thouroughly Modern Millie, Showcase Sophmore Year

Reporter for Chess, Footnotes Sophmore Year

Ever Since i was little i have wanted to perform and be in front of people. Ive always loved it. These are just a few pictures showing what i love to do! God has called me to this school to do his work. I hope i have pleased him!

Mexico

Life is to short to care what other people think. David says "I will become even more undignified than this!" all for the glory of God. I admire that. Being a worship leader has blessed me in more ways than one. I have the blessing of standing in front of people and proclaiming Gods name but i also get to use the gifts God gave me for him. To be honest i think that i have not only let God down but have let myself down also. In Mexico they worship like David. They dance and jump around and swirl towels over their heads and start conga lines, they worship without pretending, they worship like no one is watching. I was blown away by that small church in Durango Mexico. Being able to watch them inspired me to become more like them. I don't want to care how i look up on stage or care what i sound like. If the note is to high to hit who cares. If the guitar is not tuned who cares, if the bass isn't playing the same song as everyone else who cares. Its not about how it looks or sounds on stage. Its only about the heart of the people worshiping out father. Last week i saw worship as it should be. I saw a church as it should be. I saw the love of Christ come to life in those people. We were their four short days with those people helping to build a roof that would last for many rain storms and stay standing through anything. But those people were determined to serve us and make us feel more at home than we could have imagined. For maybe the first time in my life i felt like God was standing in front of me smiling and holding out his hand for me to grab hold of. I was swimming in Gods presence. It rained Gods glorious love. God worked through those people for me to see and learn from. I will never forget their faces when they saw us and greeted us for the first time and the instant love that came over them that pored out onto us. God is Good and almighty. He is the ultimate healer, lover and father the glorious name the Great I am the only one that i can cling to for hope, the never ending grace that helps me carry on. God is my father and i will not be shy about my love and passion to serve him each and every day of my life praising his name for the blessings of each day.

Pray for me to stay firm in every situation only relying on God to help me through. I know i will be tempted by the devil please pray that i wont fall down. God is bigger and stronger than anything the Devil will dish out. I cling to that faith.