First Week Of School!

In some ways i am happy to be back in school. Seeing all of my friends, Meeting twice a week with my bible study, Being a missionary. Its great i love it! But then there is the show schedule that comes up. And yes i LOVE performing. I do but when it consumes your life its a huge downer! Performing is important to me but Jesus is my priority! People have told me that i should leave NESA and go to Johnson because it would be a clean slate there and probably get more parts there because i am trained and what not... But NESA is my mission. I cant leave when it is in such need for people to spread the word and be a light... I love performing and when i first got accepted i thought it was because i was really talented. But now i know that that isn't the reason. I was accepted so that i could be a light in a dark place! I hate all the sin and heartache Satan is bringing to my school but i Love each and everyone of those people with everything that i am. And i hurt so badly to see them fall down this path of destruction. It breaks my heart! And everyday i go for them. I go for all of those boys and girls that are struggling with their sexuality, i go for the people who struggle with lust and self control, i go for those who need encouragement, i go to serve them in every way that i know possible! But at times i feel its to much for me to handle. Because I'm not trained in the missions field! I'm not someone who can bring out all this scripture that will work wonders in someone Else's life!! I wonder if I'm even making a difference! Everyone knows I'm a christian but i don't know if they know why! They know I'm different but i don't know if they think that's a good thing. They expect me to be strong all the time and never cry or be sad. I'm rambling about nothing so ill stop. But if you read this whole thing i can only ask one thing and that's for you to pray for me and my mission. I get so emotional and i take everything on my own shoulders! Please pray for the kids at NESA. Or if you have any advice... Everything is greatly appreciated!