When i was a sophmore i dated this guy who was a senior that didnt want anything serious from me. He wanted a good time and that was it. He made that very clear to me but me being stupid i thought i could minister to him(he wasnt a christian) and make him love me and change his mind... Well again i will admit i was very stupid and naiive and i failed at that little attempt and ended up giving him my first kiss... And after i told him he was my first kiss he stopped talking to me. After that i knew i never wanted to kiss anyone unless they would really apprecaite that kind of thing.So a little while ago i made a promise to myself, God, and my future husband that i wouldnt kiss anyone until i was standing face to face with my fiance at the alter waiting for the preacher to say "You may now kiss the Bride." And dont get me wrong i am so excited for that moment because i know that that first kiss with my husband will be spectacular and dreamy just like the movies!But there is this long period of time where there is Temptation, Cute Boys(that arent mature enough to marry you yet and arent even thinking about marrying you, People telling you youre crazy and that you will never be able to do it, Lonliness, and other negative things pulling you down in the dumps...Ya see... i made this purity pledge a while ago and well... boys dont like girls like me so i havent been tempted with it much but today as i was in rehearsal for the One Act play we are doing called Unexpected Tenderness which i am playing the role of Molly(the mother) and since in the play i am married to Archie there are numerous occassions when one that is married would normally kiss your spouse well... since im not married... and made the pledge i cant do them! And up to this moment i have been so good and not tempted by it at all... And then people start to raise question about why you wont kiss them, and how it would make the show better...then these thoughts come to mind about whether or not i should and i know that this is satan telling me to do it and trying to make me believe that it will make the show better i did kiss my fellow actor and its frustrating and hard but...to get to the point i realize that waiting to kiss my husband has so many more positive things than negative things. and while the negative things may be hard and may sometimes make me forget about the positive things i know that i will be giving my husband something that not a lot of other peoples spouses will have been given. I believe kisses are special. I believe that society has turned kissing into the norm... just something that you do... Thats why i made this purity pledge for myself so i can give my husband something ive been dreaming of since i was a little girl! And even though the chances of him being able to give me the same thing back are slim ill be able to know and be proud of the fact that in the tough times when temptation to kiss someone was knocking at my door i kept strong and held on to the promise i made to my future husband.
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