Fall Semester

So... I decided to be a little daring and take a Flex course this fall for my final core class English Comp 2... A flex course is a course that is finished in half the amount of time it takes a regular semester to end. A normal semester is 16 weeks, Flex obviously is 8 weeks... Boy was that a mistake! eekkk

First there was the technical difficulties of the course, for some reason my class does not come up on Macbooks, of course i didnt know that until yesterday and the course started monday! But its ok i got it worked out and now have access to my class....

Then there was the first assignment! And one would think that because it is only an 8 week class that the teacher would condense the amount of work to be reasonable for an 8 week period.... OH NO... NO NO NO! My professor obviously wants to make sure that we are reading every bit of material that is in the regular course.

My first bit of homework is to read the first 12 chapters of my Text book... Plus 15 short stories.

Oh, did i mention i dont have my text book yet! I ordered it Monday... I have a test over the material Saturday! I am able to read some of the short stories that are posted online, but as far as the 12 chapters i am suppose to read in the text book, im thinking this first test is probably not going to be my best!

Ohhhhhh boy!!!

School Time Structure.

Today has been uber relaxing. The kiddos went left for school at 7:20ish, the babies didnt wake up until closer to 8. And since they have been up other than the sound of an unhappy baby it has been pretty quiet... Especially now since they are both napping! :)

I may only be 19... But i have come to love the little bits of me time that i am able to get. And lately i have become more fond of silence! There is something so refreshing about listening to nothing.... just quiet!

I have come to the conclusion that this year is going to be very good for all of us. Not only in creating structure for the girls and CJ to learn from, but also as a family to not go completely insane feeling the need to be entertaining 24/7.... Oh and exciting news...

My mom got an email from CJ's teacher and she said that he was doing very good his first day. That he was excited to be at school and learn! :) We were very pleased to hear that!

Im off to go fold and pick up the house.

New School Year!

Emma my baby sister is going to be attending her first day of 5th grade... Which is the last day of Elementary school in Texas. :( I am pretty much a wreck... Definitely not ok with her getting so big!

And CJ my little bro is going into 1st grade which i am really excited for him to go and grow! But am also a bit nervous about little punks who feel the need to bully people who are different.

If your prayers could be for Emma and CJ this week i am sure they will be blessed by it!

Wish i could post pics of our angels... Imagine them beautiful haha

No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

Hebrews 12:11

I love the simplicity of this truth.

GO GOD!!!

Why Jesus?!

To start... Major Praise.... I PASSED MATH!!! :) Even though it was the only D i have ever received in school in my life, i passed... Because a D can be passing in College so what the heck ILL TAKE IT!!! :) WOO HOO!!! I think it is soooo funny when little things like this happen to test faith in GOD. I mean, here i am flipping out over a stupid summer school math class... Seriously... Math! I was about to let in consume my emotions and destroy a couple of beautiful days because i did bad on tests, when GOD was right there the entire time screaming in my face "Dude, chill out! I will take care of you and everything is going to be ok!" So after a few almost cry sessions, after i got over the stupidity of wanting to cry over a math test my days turned out to be fantastic! I see now why he never allowed me to shed a tear over that class... Because even though i barely squeezed by with a passing grade, it was passing... And in all reality that is all i care about when it comes to school! All that to say i passed... I talk to much!

Now on to important things... I have been listening to Klove (if you dont like klove you can zip your lip because i think they are awesome!) like crazyyyy for a while now because i am in my car so much. Anywhooo they are asking a question right now that kind of caught me off guard because it is not necessarily one i think about everyday. If you had to give a 30 second answer on Why you Chose Jesus; what would you say?

So i am actually very curious to know... I will ask you...

WHY JESUS?

Living, School.... Being Patient and Trusting

OHHHHH BOYYY!!!!!!! Yesterday I took my College Algebra Final for my second session of online summer school that i am taking... And, Well, I had to make a 71 i think, i was shooting for a 86 but i think i will be okay with a 71. I know that is a big leap but i am more than okay with slimming close to the edges when it comes to schooling. Anyways, i have no idea how i did... I am trying my best to stay positive but there is that little voice in the back of my head that LOVES to jump in and fill me with distrust and doubt. Ya see, GOD has promised me that he will provide for me... And that everything is going to be okay. So i have given myself no choice but to believe it! But at the same time me being imperfect and human and all there is that little pinch of insecurity! I hate it, but i wont lie and say it isn't there. Anywho, please be prayin' for me in that area, as i am trusting in the LORD and remaining confident in him. That is something that has been a little tough for me lately is remaining confident not in myself but in GOD.

Back to more interesting things.... Fostering has been going great, we all absolutely love these kids and are very glad they are in our home. Even though there is frustration at times and feelings of being extremely tired to on the edge of going insane, I know with my entire being that these kids are suppose to be in our home. GOD has proven that time and time again and it is honestly the only thing i can cling to at times. Ariel our little baby who will be 10 months in a week has been very fond of screaming her head off every opportunity she can get! At times i feel like that crazy guy on the side of the road that stares off into the distance but in all reality is looking at nothing in particular, with his hair looking like he just got struck by lightning and smells like poop. After being stuck with a screaming baby for 30 min straight that guy doesn't seem so crazy to me anymore! :) haha

Being carried away with all the negativity is very easy for me to do, but for some reason i have not once been able to forget that GOD has a purpose for my family... That he has a purpose for these kids, and that he is using my house to help that purpose happen! It is truly spectacular to think about 3 more souls being saved for eternity just because they lived in our house for X amount of time! That is my strong hold! The amazing promises that GOD keeps reminding me! :)

I wish i could post pics of our angels! But unfortunately for their safety we are not aloud to.

Please keep praying for my family as we continue our new journey and for me and my schooling. I should be done with my core stuff by october if i pass my math class! :)

Lots of Love!

1 Week Later...

We have had our new additions for 1 week so far and despite the overwhelming moments of having 2 babies pooping, crying and moaning the experience is going pretty good so far. Turns out the older two kiddos are a year younger than we though they were. CJ is 6 turning 7 and Jaz is 1 turning 2 while Ariel is 9 months. It has only been 7 days and already these kids have made a bond with each of us and has implanted a soft spot in our hearts as well! We love these kids! It is pretty crazy to think that we could have them for 4 months minimum and anything longer than that is unknown! Surprisingly the hectic and constant changes in our daily schedules has not been near as stressful as i thought it would be. Of course the first two days adjusting to the new bodies in our home got pretty emotional at times, but after we established a routine for them things have began to shine a little brighter.

It is inevitable for us to encounter trials and heartache because of this process. But i can already see that the blessings far outweigh the negative things that happen. And though the blessings may be few and far between at times, they are the things we have been holding on to! Already i can see changes in these kids, but more importantly i see major changes in my family! My mom deserves a HOSS award, she has unleashed a wonder woman from within her that i have never seen before. My dad has taken special interest in these kids and has been fantastic at showing these kids a positive male influential role that they have never seen! It is so cute to see how CJ latches onto my dad and is awestruck by him... He calls my parents mom and dad... Heartbreaking, but so sweet at the same time! My brother met them for the first time Sunday and he is such a wimp when it comes to babies... He fell in love with the little ones and was a GREAT big brother to CJ, teaching him to swim and playing legos with him. And then there is my baby sis Emma, I dont think she fully understood the task we signed up for but she has done far better with adjusting to these kids than i gave her credit for. She is more than willing to give up her "being the baby girl" role! I am so inspired by my family and their roles that they have played in impacting and loving on these kids.

If nothing else, i have seen how blessed i am to have a mom who is my best friend, a dad who is always willing to fight for me and love me, an amazing overprotective brother who can always make me smile and a sister who is always there for me! We have been blessed with an amazing placement! These kids fit perfectly with our family and i look forward to the rest of our time together. I hope it doesnt go by to fast! :)