Remaining content. Accepting gifts. Being Thankful

Today is a new day. A beautiful day. Today I was reminded how often I overlook all the blessings in my life and go about each day with an additude of discontentment and ungratefulness. Oh, how disappointing is this?! I've come to realize how contagious this world is. How easy it is to act like a spoiled brat. How hard it is to be different from the majority of those I am surrounded by constantly. LORD open my eyes! I've prayed this so many times. Today I am revising it. LORD help me to stop quenching my eye lids closed. Kill this evil inside my heart that distracts me from you. Help me to keep my eyes wide open! I want to be better. I have to admit I've struggled with having a heart of gratitude; I have allowed myself to focus more on the negative things in my life like Brandon moving to Austin and not being able to be with him all the time. My financial situation and not being as comfortable or having ad much in my bank account as I used to. Problems with work, not always having Sunday's off. Working all the time. Being so tired and feeling hopeless like I will have to work over 40 hours for the rest of my life. Dwelling on this negative energy. Feeding myself with self loathing and pity. Feeling so sorry for myself and refusing to get over it! I've forgotten my word for 2011... POSITIVE! Well today folks, I will be different! I will have a new state of thinking! I challenge myself to a anti-negativity lifestyle. I will be positive. I will see all that I have been given! I will dwell on the beautiful things in life and refuse to be intoxicated with the problems I think I'm having. The LORD had been nothing but good to me. He has done nothing but continually provide for me. He has been nothing but faithful to me! OH HAPPY DAY! :) The LORD and our Heavenly Father alone has rescued me from this ugliness I've chosen for myself. Darkness will reign no more. The light is shining on me and I feel new again! How Great is our Papa! He is a wonderful GOD! My provider! My love! My life! My everything! So hopeful!