I quote myself "I am the worst blogger!"

It has been quite a while! Oops... Ok... So Thursday i took 3 mid terms which i think went pretty well... I had two last saturday which leaves one class. Praise God we dont have a mid term in that class. I was thinking the other day i should just repeat over and over "I love tests I love tests I love tests I love tests!" Then maybe i would get good at them :) Yea, i dont think it will work! haha

Updates on the Mission... All my amazing recommendation filler outers have so kindly dont their recommendations for me, Now i have to fill out paper work and get a physical and take a personality test. My goal is to be finished with this phase before this month is over. I am praying and i would appreciate ya'lls prayers in me finding a place cheap to get a physical that would take time to fill out the paper work with care and thought into it. (a physician has to fill out all this stuff... Boring... i know!) Anyways, that is what is going there. PRAISE GOD!

I am doing this work out program with my mom and a great friend Cindy Dinsmore. It is Chalene Johnson... HOLY COW it kicks my butt... But i am pretty much addicted at this point i think! It has been two weeks so far and i am already noticing my energy level shooting up(as if i needed any more of that) and all around i am just feeling so fresh(after i shower of course) and healthy! My mom bought mangos which is my all time favorite fruit and i ate a whole one for breakfast yesterday after working out... Turns out i had orange stains all around my mouth.... And i found out at school that i had orange stains on my pants too. I will take that as a warning that i need to calm down when mangos are in sight. (I eat the peel too, my mom almost hurled when she saw me... It was kind funny!)

Then today, God totally showed himself! A very good friend of mine and i mended hurt feelings and working toward restoring our relationship. The burdon of wearing that pain was so heavy and thick but that is SO gone now and i can breathe so much easier. It amazes me how often i let my burdons affect my physical self.. Like health wise whenever i am stressed i get so tight and my asthma is worse and everything about me is just so on edge. But God freed me from that this morning. It has been a GREAT day! Worked out, had oat meal, Made amense with my sister in Christ, Went on a walk with my momma and the dogs, came home, blogged and am waiting for my sister to get home so we can go to the Grants house to nanny for their 3 angels. I look forward to it!

I am going to try to keep this up a little more... I will try i will try i will try i will try, maybe it will work! :)

Lots of Love! Blessings, Britt

Ohhhh life!!!

After a fantastic trip to Paris and Germany visiting my German sister Marie, and after heading to the Ukraine to pick up 3 gorgeous babies which i love so very very much life seemed to have taken flight in a positive happy ora of greatness! Then... i came home! At first i was on fire so excited about adoption and missions and just all around full of joy! Lately i have lost that joy that i had when i was around those babies.... So now... I am certain i have found the solution to my slight decrease of funk and stokedness of life... Babies. In order to find that joy i felt in the Ukraine with those children i need to get some babies! :) hahaha.... Of course i know that this will not happen very soon, i am also very aware that what i want to have caused the joy, and what actually caused the joy are two totally different things! GOD is the sole reason for any joy i felt there and will feel now. BUT babies did play a part in it! For months i have been shuffling back and forth of what kind of missionary work i wanted to do... Whether it be just helping people in their towns build stuff or cook for them or what not! Now i am fairly certain that i am called to be around children overseas... I really want to work in Orphanages overseas but we'll see where God leads me with that whole thing! Overall, even though my current battle with finding joy in my present circumstances(which just happens to be a boredom of life and a urge to be on a mission somewhere else right now) I know that God is teaching me, shaping me, helping me find peace and have patience in this time of waiting so anxiously for March to come around to find out where i will be goin on my mission come 2011. Its just that week or two long of blahhhh period in the year! I am praying it will leave my spirit soon but i am also grateful to learn from this time too.

Oh and for anyone reading.... Because of my long lost older sister Terra Phelps whom i love dearly, I have decided to start blogging more regularly... Hopefully i will get around to adding pictures from the big trip i took about a month ago! Anywhooo... Much love and God bless your precious self!

Let The Waters Rise!!!

There is a song by Mikeschair that i LOVE soooo much!

It pumps me up... Its Let the waters rise.

Listening to it gives me hope. I have so much faith and motivation after i hear it. I want to follow God through all of my life. Not just the good times. But in the bad times. All of it. If there is something that i have to go through to get to where God wants me to be then so be it. BRING IT ON!!!!

I will follow you Papa. I will follow you alone!

Hurting and suffering is only painful for the moment. The outcome and the lesson learned is endless. I've had pain surround me for a lot of years, and i did nothing but complain or have self pity. No more. I make a vow to embrace pain head on. Im not scared anymore. I have no reason to be scared! My God is bigger than anything satan can even think about throwing at me.

I don't want satan to get side track. He has been convinced for to long that he is going to win this battle. But we know the future. We know God wins in the end. I am making it a personal goal to live my life reminding satan day by day that he isn't going to win. So that he should just give up! :) This battle isn't pretty. And i am not about to let fear or self pity get me down and out of this fight!

Lets go

UNITE BELIEVERS!!!!

p.s. if you havent heard that song let the waters rise by Mikeschair i suggest it! :) Youtube.com has it... Listen listen listen! Its sooo encouraging

Genuine

These past weeks as ive been talking to God it has seemed that there is one thing he keeps bringing up to me. Its Love. Pure Genuine Love. I have to admit the pure genuine kind can in some cases be the hardest thing in the world to pull off. He's asked me to be a light to someone who i love. The thing about this particular case is that me being a light is one me laying down my feelings and putting them to the side, cause they are not whats most important. And in doing that hes asked me to be a one way accountability to him. Just a daily reminder to stay in touch with the God. The result of this im afraid is that my relationship with this particular person will never be the same. Cause Gods method in getting to him is honesty and nagging almost. But in a good way. I feel a bittersweet emotion. I am sad that my obedience means sacrificing a relationship that meant so much to me! But i am stoked because i know that God is working through me cause half the time i have no idea what i send or what im writing until after its sent and i re read. its trippy sometimes looking back and being like.. uhhhh i dont remember writing that! Its cool though at the same time. And i know that God is going to use him and is using him and wants to use him for greatness!

Genuine Love is sacrifice

is discipline

is letting go of somethings to let them grow

is being there

is forgiving

is doubtless

is pure

is shameless

is fulfilling

is happy

sometimes makes you feel sad

is great

is blameless

is patient

is kind

is accepting

is putting others before yourself

is giving endless amounts to everyone

This Love can only be received by devoting your life to God. Im working on it. But my goal is to Love like this. Even when it means giving up things i love. Its not about me its about God.

I had to get that off my chest. Just something ive been thinking about

Utter Happiness

This month has been amazing! God has come through on so many different levels. I feel as though i am closer with him than i ever have been. I owe a lot of that to a really amazing guy. He challenged me and pushed me to never settle for less than i deserve. I cant take credit and say i was just being a good christian. Cause that would be lying! God blessed me. Abundantly and i am awestruck! I really cant put into words how absolutely in love i am with God and his faithfulness. Its hard to keep God first in a relationship with a guy who you care so deeply for. But i think we did a pretty good job at that. Trusting God with everything is hard but also not impossible! God has been with the both of us throughout it all and i know that he will continue to stand by our side. Together and apart. And though we are apart right now i know that if God intended us to be together we will be. I have faith that if its what is right he'll bring us back to each other and it will be more amazing and fulfilling than when we first got together. I ask anyone who may read this (Doubt anyone reads my blog anyway but just in case) to pray for God to give me more patience and to continue to trust him with everything. Also pray for the amazing guy God blessed me with. God is Good. All the Time! God bless all of you and please let me know if you have any prayer requests. I love praying for people so lemme know! :)

God Speed

Powerful King

I am so incredibly grateful to have a GOD that is almighty and all knowing!!! Its encouraging to know that there is one person who will never fail you! When all your friends let you down in some way we still have a GOD that is forever faithful! Its mind bottling really!! Just knowing that he loves us that much! Tonight at church David was leading worship and i mean Dave is just a great worship leader in general! He has a gift and we have been very blessed to have him in our church to lead us... but there was something different about the set that he chose tonight! I was just so consumed in worship... I had the urge to sing at the top of my lungs so i did! I was screaming without screaming(that may not make much sense but i get it in my head). I just felt this tingly feeling all over my body! I knew GOD was with me!!! IT WAS THE BEST THING EVER!!!! Normally i would only get that high off worship at a church camp and ive always wanted to have that spiritual high at home and i got that tonight!!! GOD is so good! He is always lookin out for me :) MY GOD IS GREAT!!!!! I know that in the end every knee will bow and every tounge confess that GOD is King forever!

It breaks my heart to see people who are lost hurting. I live by example. They know what i believe and why i believe it. I pray for them and i know God will work in them and i have faith that they will come to know him. I just cant help but cry when they tell me about their brokenness!! I feel like our hearts are connected and mine breaks when theirs do! You can imagine im sure how emotional i am! haha!! :) Crying makes you stronger in my opinion! Please pray for NESA and Johnson and for me that i would continue to be a light in these dark places! I would appreciate that so much! God Bless You!

One Day Soon

When i was a sophmore i dated this guy who was a senior that didnt want anything serious from me. He wanted a good time and that was it. He made that very clear to me but me being stupid i thought i could minister to him(he wasnt a christian) and make him love me and change his mind... Well again i will admit i was very stupid and naiive and i failed at that little attempt and ended up giving him my first kiss... And after i told him he was my first kiss he stopped talking to me. After that i knew i never wanted to kiss anyone unless they would really apprecaite that kind of thing.So a little while ago i made a promise to myself, God, and my future husband that i wouldnt kiss anyone until i was standing face to face with my fiance at the alter waiting for the preacher to say "You may now kiss the Bride." And dont get me wrong i am so excited for that moment because i know that that first kiss with my husband will be spectacular and dreamy just like the movies!But there is this long period of time where there is Temptation, Cute Boys(that arent mature enough to marry you yet and arent even thinking about marrying you, People telling you youre crazy and that you will never be able to do it, Lonliness, and other negative things pulling you down in the dumps...Ya see... i made this purity pledge a while ago and well... boys dont like girls like me so i havent been tempted with it much but today as i was in rehearsal for the One Act play we are doing called Unexpected Tenderness which i am playing the role of Molly(the mother) and since in the play i am married to Archie there are numerous occassions when one that is married would normally kiss your spouse well... since im not married... and made the pledge i cant do them! And up to this moment i have been so good and not tempted by it at all... And then people start to raise question about why you wont kiss them, and how it would make the show better...then these thoughts come to mind about whether or not i should and i know that this is satan telling me to do it and trying to make me believe that it will make the show better i did kiss my fellow actor and its frustrating and hard but...to get to the point i realize that waiting to kiss my husband has so many more positive things than negative things. and while the negative things may be hard and may sometimes make me forget about the positive things i know that i will be giving my husband something that not a lot of other peoples spouses will have been given. I believe kisses are special. I believe that society has turned kissing into the norm... just something that you do... Thats why i made this purity pledge for myself so i can give my husband something ive been dreaming of since i was a little girl! And even though the chances of him being able to give me the same thing back are slim ill be able to know and be proud of the fact that in the tough times when temptation to kiss someone was knocking at my door i kept strong and held on to the promise i made to my future husband.