Terra!!!!

Finally going up north to visit my favorite lady in the world! Love my second family :) can't wait!

Dear GOD

Fill me with Joy you alone can provide. allow me to fully grasp and soak in your peace that I may live in harmony with you in my heart. Help me trust you better. Help me be better at reading studying understanding remembering and applying your word. Help me be an example. May your name be glorified. In my life at home at work with family with friends with Brandon. Help me remember I am loved. Help me to love you more and notice all you've done. Open my eyes that I may see your gorgeous works. Remove the fear from my heart and mind. Remind me I am protected.

Forgive me for all my trespasses. Forgive me from my distrust in you. Forgive me for sometimes forgetting you and all you've done.

I love you and long to love you more LORD.

Amen

Embracing Change

A new life is fast approaching. I am optimistic and relentlessly trying to get everything organized before it all launches. 59 days from now i will be an Austinite!!! Yes, that is a real thing! Not only will i be living there, It is a goal to get scholarships and go back to school to finish my degree. I have been searching for Apartments and i am praying this place i am going to look at Friday turns out as "The One." In my humble opinion, Apartments are like a spouse. They have to be perfect and fit all your personality traits in order for it to work out successfully! With my first apartment i could not do without ceiling fans, a gate, cheap, clean, balcony, nice community area and many many many MANY more stipulations. This go around i have 2 requirements. Washer and dryer connections, because i have a washer and dryer. AND Cheap. Of course i can clean it myself... LORD knows i will sanitize it regardless. Seems like washing clothes is not that big of a deal to Austinites... Seeing as how it is IMPOSSIBLE to find any apartments with connections in the actual apartment. Will NOT be washing my pantelones in a grungy washer room with other people... Staying in there for over an hour until they are done and then carrying ALL my laundry back to my house. 1. i am clumsy and could possibly drop all the clean clothes on the floor. 2. Dont want anyone to see my panties..............(long awkward pause)......... Sorry, just being honest in my blog. Sue me!

Pray for me people!

I am SO EXCITED!!!!!!!

Bucktown

Lately at Starbucks we have been working towards speeding up my store. Well i was so excited because My morning team this last Wednesday had the highest number of transactions in a given half hour than any one else has had in the past 4 months... AND Today i was on bar (which i am not the best bar person... but ive wanted to get better) and beat my score that i made on Wednesday... TWICE IN A ROW!!! I was so blessed by that. My whole team was working so hard and it paid off.

The LORD provided me the strength to finish our Peak and to keep the momentum and speed constant. THANK YOU LORD!!!!

Such a great day at Work. I remembered today why i love my job. Team work, Encouraging employees, and a manager that cares about the partners.

Cleaning House

The past few days i have been cleaning out drawers and the things stored on shelves in my closet. My room has been a disaster because everything has been out and ive been tossing things that ive kept for far to long and have never used. I am a recovering Hoarder!!! I keep everything. Why?! Because i believe that EVERYTHING can be used for scrapbooks :) But it has been very refreshing. I feel so much better because a lot of crap has been thrown out.

In the process I came across this little thing that my mom got me... I LOVE these things :)

Mine sings let me call you sweet heart

In other news i have the best room mate ever :) She made dinner tonight... Hello i feel spoiled already :) Love you Jules!!!

Weddings Galore

Over the last 3 weeks i attended 3 weddings and stood in 2. To start the wedding extravaganza Kristin Sylvia because Kristin Hildebrand :) Then was my Brothers wedding to my former roomie Amber. Its was gorgeous. The weather turned out beautifully, it was an all outside wedding/reception. The reception was held at my parents house and boy did it turn out wonderful! Side note: My parents are truly amazing! They re decorated their entire backyard for Derek and Ambers wedding. From putting a pool in to planting tons of trees and flowers they worked so hard preparing for my big bros wonderful day. Their wedding was probably easily one of the prettiest weddings ive ever attended. It was simple and homey and my whole family came in from Arizona to Celebrate with us. It was perfect. Not to mention my Wonderful Boyfriend was the DJ/MC to the event. So of course that made it all the more perfect. It really would not have been the same for me had he not been there to share it with me. Another Side Note: Cudos and special thanks to Brandon for all the hard work and hours he put into the very last minute playlist and reception set up. He did a great job and i appreciate you putting so much time in for my family! I love that boii. Finally to end the Wedding parade was my Best friend Lauren Azzaro who is now happily married to a wonderful man Jonathan aka Scotty Shepherd. Their wedding was as elegant and elegant can be. After a very rainy day the evening cleared up to leave crystal blue skies for their ceremony. Plus Terra was in town so i got to spend a lot of time with her! Which she of course means the world to me so it wouldn't have been the same without her. So glad she could fly in for it! :)

Needless to say i was very exhausted! Though it was a glorious 3 weeks of celebrating the beautiful love these couples share and the holy matrimony and joining of hearts in GODs name. I was blessed to be apart of them as well as to see them all be over! Thanks GOD for finally allowing me time to catch up on the sleep i so desperately needed!

Remaining content. Accepting gifts. Being Thankful

Today is a new day. A beautiful day. Today I was reminded how often I overlook all the blessings in my life and go about each day with an additude of discontentment and ungratefulness. Oh, how disappointing is this?! I've come to realize how contagious this world is. How easy it is to act like a spoiled brat. How hard it is to be different from the majority of those I am surrounded by constantly. LORD open my eyes! I've prayed this so many times. Today I am revising it. LORD help me to stop quenching my eye lids closed. Kill this evil inside my heart that distracts me from you. Help me to keep my eyes wide open! I want to be better. I have to admit I've struggled with having a heart of gratitude; I have allowed myself to focus more on the negative things in my life like Brandon moving to Austin and not being able to be with him all the time. My financial situation and not being as comfortable or having ad much in my bank account as I used to. Problems with work, not always having Sunday's off. Working all the time. Being so tired and feeling hopeless like I will have to work over 40 hours for the rest of my life. Dwelling on this negative energy. Feeding myself with self loathing and pity. Feeling so sorry for myself and refusing to get over it! I've forgotten my word for 2011... POSITIVE! Well today folks, I will be different! I will have a new state of thinking! I challenge myself to a anti-negativity lifestyle. I will be positive. I will see all that I have been given! I will dwell on the beautiful things in life and refuse to be intoxicated with the problems I think I'm having. The LORD had been nothing but good to me. He has done nothing but continually provide for me. He has been nothing but faithful to me! OH HAPPY DAY! :) The LORD and our Heavenly Father alone has rescued me from this ugliness I've chosen for myself. Darkness will reign no more. The light is shining on me and I feel new again! How Great is our Papa! He is a wonderful GOD! My provider! My love! My life! My everything! So hopeful!