365 days!

A year ago today i made a promise to GOD that i would be single for a year! In that particular time in my life i was dealing with heartache from a recent breakup from the first boyfriend i ever had. I was lonely and felt like there were absolutely no answers to why these unfortunate events were occurring right on top of each other. I decided (More like GOD told me to and i listened) that the stress of relationships with boys was a hinderance more than a blessing and i needed some time off. At the beginning i didn't know if i would be able to do it, and i even asked GOD stupid questions like... Well what if my future husband comes along and wants to be with me while i am taking this vow of singleness for a whole year?! Just a side note, i am daily astounded by the amount of Grace GOD gives me each day of my life... especially when i am exceptionally stupid :)

It wasn't until about a month or so ago that the main question i had over this past year was answered. The big "WHY?" To be honest the answer was simple... GOD wanted me to recognize that he is the only relationship i will ever have that will not fail. He is the only one who will always love me and be there for me in every situation. And more than anything, he wanted me to know that no matter what status i have in this world, i am deeply and unconditionally loved. I have heard it said to me before by pastors, small group leaders, even friends... But i wasn't ready to receive it! And to be honest i didn't believe it until now! GOD has allowed me to be receptive to feelings i have never experienced. To see things from different perspectives and to approach relationships in a different way.

I wont ever say that i have learned how to manage and carry out a perfect relationship. Because there aint no way I could ever perform such a high task! :) But GOD has instilled in me a new confidence and reassurance that when he is in control of my heart, the relationships he gives me will prosper. And i believe my future is in such great hands! I feel such peace and comfort knowing that i do not and will not ever have to worry about my future.

GODs got my back :)