Christmas Season At Last!!!

I know for me personally when the Christmas season rolls around I get so busy with school and getting presents and hanging out with friends that i am to busy to remember what Christmas is really about and how incredible Christmas is not because of the things that my family and friends will buy me but because it is the day when True Love was born into this world. The day when hope re-entered into our lives. This Christmas especially i have been very aware of my schedule and have tried my very hardest not to get to busy that way i can have time for God to just say thank you. And its been hard telling people no a lot harder than i would have ever thought it to be but i feel good. I have found that i have been filled with 10 times as much joy than i have in the past two years. And Ive even noticed a difference at school too... I talk to my friends at school and they are constantly weighed down by the world by their overloaded commitments and i feel free. I can take a deep breath and not have to worry about being late for five different things. Ever since Aaron's sermon at the beginning of the school year about not overloading your schedule and making sure to have time to be lazy and do nothing i have tried my best not to forget it. And i am proud to say that my first semester is pretty much over and i have not yet had a mental breakdown over school!!!! (Which for me is a very big accomplishment!) I look forward to another year... To Graduating and going to college. To starting my life and going with the flow! I figure if God already knows what i will be when i grow up and who i will marry how many kids ill have what ill struggle with and what will be totally awesome for me then i might as well not try to stress myself out with the unknown! Its a great feeling and i recommend it for anyone!! God Bless You and keep you safe!

And be lazy every now and again. Relax by your Christmas tree and listen to some music, lay in the lawn and stare and the stars, Be free from the chains of time and rush... Its worth it! : )

Times Changing

Im in Government right now and we were given an assignment to look for interest groups that we are interested in based on our beliefs... I was stoked to see that there are many out there that have the same strong beliefs against abortion and there is even a Christian group that i think yall should check out! Here are the sites...

Christian Coalition: Http://www.cc.org/
And one of the many Pro-Life groups is National Right to Life: Http://www.nrlc.org/

Christians are rising and taking a stand in what they believe in... We can no longer sit at the side lines and keep our heads down... Its time to rise up and conquer the Devil!!! LETS DO IT!!!

Pro-Life National Day Of Silence

Tuesday was the Pro life national day of silence. People who were supporters of this group took a vow of silence for the day by wearing red tape over their mouths that had LIFE written on it. I took part in this event and it was really cool! Not talking for the day in honor of the innocent children that were killed because of Abortion. www.abort73.com is an awesome site they have T- shirts, bags, hoodies, stickers, and a ton of other great stuff that you can buy online. Yall should check it out!

As christians we need to be praying a lot in general but specifically for the upcoming election right now. Sean made a great point sunday and i wanted to share it with yall... He said "Match your politics with the Bible not the Bible with your politics." God should be the center of all of our decisions. Many people will argue the Seperation of church and state but thats rediculous to me. God made the state! And we are the Church... But wait... God made us too... so it doesnt make sense to seperate the creator from his creation. I dont know if that came out right! But it made sense to me! Anyway whatever happens happens for a reason. Whoever is elected God knew before hand!

Really random Blog!

Christian V.S. Integrity

Dictionary.com defines Christian as a person who believes in Jesus Christ; adherent of Christianity. Society today has taken the word Christian and applied a million different meanings to it. "A person who believes in Jesus Christ" that definition sucks. Why is it that society finds every way possible to avoid defining REAL and TRUE Christians. Because it is so much more than that little 7 word description. To me a Christian is defined as A follower in Jesus Christ; A devoted disciple that lives for the father; Someone who loves without question; Someone who will not judge someone else because of their sin; A friend to those who dont fit in. The list goes on and on. I know why Dictionary. com has put that tiny description on the name Christian. Because most people who call themselves by that name dont live like a Christian should. They dont show love or grace to people who have fallen into sin time and time again. They judge those who are different. They deny Christ in their schools. Christians are thought of as Rich snobby people that want everything for themselves and that dont have the time to worry about poor people or homeless people or people that are dying from their sin. And why shouldnt they think that?! They have every right to think that way. Because we havent dont anything to change it. We have done nothing to prove that Christians are more that believers in Jesus Christ. Lets start Now! Lets change that 7 word description into a 1000 word essay about all the great things that Christians are suppose to be. Lets live like Jesus lived, Forgive like Jesus forgave, Love like Jesus loved, lets walk in the footsteps of Jesus Christ and show this world how truly Glorious he really is! I'm stoked!

2nd Week of School

Turns out... I was wrong!!! NESA was no longer my mission... I left last week and started at Johnson High School. And lemme tell ya... Leaving all of those people was one of the hardest things ive ever had to do. Basically i was complaining about Gas and how i dont have a passion to go to NESA anymore like i used to and i didnt know if God was calling me there... So my parents gave me two choices... I could either stay at NESA or leave and go to Johnson. But i had to decide that night. And obviously i chose Johnson and i have never felt better about a decision in my life... God has called me to new and greater challenges at Johnson.. But i need prayer. I am fixin to start a Bible Study there but i have to talk to an administrator before i can start it and all that... SOOOO if i can ever get a meeting with him then we will get it started! And its hard because i knew like everyone at NESA and so i was able to talk to them about my faith cause they knew i was a christian... But now... i know like barely anyone other than the few Reagan people who switched over... So im scared and slightly discouraged but im keeping my head held high because i know that i have a God who will bless me for doing his work... And i hope im doing it right! So if you read this please keep Johnson and the new Bible Study that God is starting there that he will bless it!!! God Bless and have a GREAT week!!!

First Week Of School!

In some ways i am happy to be back in school. Seeing all of my friends, Meeting twice a week with my bible study, Being a missionary. Its great i love it! But then there is the show schedule that comes up. And yes i LOVE performing. I do but when it consumes your life its a huge downer! Performing is important to me but Jesus is my priority! People have told me that i should leave NESA and go to Johnson because it would be a clean slate there and probably get more parts there because i am trained and what not... But NESA is my mission. I cant leave when it is in such need for people to spread the word and be a light... I love performing and when i first got accepted i thought it was because i was really talented. But now i know that that isn't the reason. I was accepted so that i could be a light in a dark place! I hate all the sin and heartache Satan is bringing to my school but i Love each and everyone of those people with everything that i am. And i hurt so badly to see them fall down this path of destruction. It breaks my heart! And everyday i go for them. I go for all of those boys and girls that are struggling with their sexuality, i go for the people who struggle with lust and self control, i go for those who need encouragement, i go to serve them in every way that i know possible! But at times i feel its to much for me to handle. Because I'm not trained in the missions field! I'm not someone who can bring out all this scripture that will work wonders in someone Else's life!! I wonder if I'm even making a difference! Everyone knows I'm a christian but i don't know if they know why! They know I'm different but i don't know if they think that's a good thing. They expect me to be strong all the time and never cry or be sad. I'm rambling about nothing so ill stop. But if you read this whole thing i can only ask one thing and that's for you to pray for me and my mission. I get so emotional and i take everything on my own shoulders! Please pray for the kids at NESA. Or if you have any advice... Everything is greatly appreciated!

NESA

Titania in Midsummer Nights Dream, Old Woman in Footnotes Junior Year

Translations for Thouroughly Modern Millie, Showcase Sophmore Year

Reporter for Chess, Footnotes Sophmore Year

Ever Since i was little i have wanted to perform and be in front of people. Ive always loved it. These are just a few pictures showing what i love to do! God has called me to this school to do his work. I hope i have pleased him!

Mexico

Life is to short to care what other people think. David says "I will become even more undignified than this!" all for the glory of God. I admire that. Being a worship leader has blessed me in more ways than one. I have the blessing of standing in front of people and proclaiming Gods name but i also get to use the gifts God gave me for him. To be honest i think that i have not only let God down but have let myself down also. In Mexico they worship like David. They dance and jump around and swirl towels over their heads and start conga lines, they worship without pretending, they worship like no one is watching. I was blown away by that small church in Durango Mexico. Being able to watch them inspired me to become more like them. I don't want to care how i look up on stage or care what i sound like. If the note is to high to hit who cares. If the guitar is not tuned who cares, if the bass isn't playing the same song as everyone else who cares. Its not about how it looks or sounds on stage. Its only about the heart of the people worshiping out father. Last week i saw worship as it should be. I saw a church as it should be. I saw the love of Christ come to life in those people. We were their four short days with those people helping to build a roof that would last for many rain storms and stay standing through anything. But those people were determined to serve us and make us feel more at home than we could have imagined. For maybe the first time in my life i felt like God was standing in front of me smiling and holding out his hand for me to grab hold of. I was swimming in Gods presence. It rained Gods glorious love. God worked through those people for me to see and learn from. I will never forget their faces when they saw us and greeted us for the first time and the instant love that came over them that pored out onto us. God is Good and almighty. He is the ultimate healer, lover and father the glorious name the Great I am the only one that i can cling to for hope, the never ending grace that helps me carry on. God is my father and i will not be shy about my love and passion to serve him each and every day of my life praising his name for the blessings of each day.

Pray for me to stay firm in every situation only relying on God to help me through. I know i will be tempted by the devil please pray that i wont fall down. God is bigger and stronger than anything the Devil will dish out. I cling to that faith.

Life in the eyes of a child

Today was the final day of VBS. It was a great week if i do say so myself! I had more fun and learned more than i could have ever expected to! There is nothing that i would do to change this week. Rachel and I had so much fun together conquering challenging courses on the playground, watching the cars roll by, and praising Jesus! I remember it was yesterday that we were sitting there on the steps of the playground. Rachel was fascinated by the multitude of cars that were rolling by. And i really felt God telling me to talk to her about him. So i asked her... "Rachel do you love Jesus?" and at first her response was "No" but then i explained who he was and that he loved her very much i asked her again.. "Do you love Jesus?" and she immediately responded saying "Yes i love Jesus!" I cant tell you how good that felt! It was tough and i was very knew to dealing with children with Down Syndrome but i wouldn't have traded my one on one time with Rachel for anything. There is no where else i would have rather been than watching her grow so much and become so much stronger! Watching her embrace life instead of hiding behind it! She was such an encouragement to me! I want to live like Rachel. Full of love and joy! Not fearing the obstacles in my life but taking them head on and dealing with it. I grew to love this amazing little girl! Rachel is my hero! And i am so glad God placed her in my life!

Baby steps

One thing i noticed today was how fast paced society is! With everything, making new cars, new phones, new houses, anything to upgrade. The i phone comes out and not even half a year later there is already a phone out better than that. Why is everything so competitive?! I want so badly to move to the Amish country where they don't bother worrying about technological things that distract us from what really matters! like emails and text messages facebook or myspace. Little stupid things that distract us from God mainly. We are focusing so far ahead into the future and how we can be better than what we have now that we are missing out on all the amazing gifts God has given us right now! I write this because i believe i am the most guilty one out of all of us. I have my life planned to the core! I knew how many kids i wanted where i want to get married the dress i want my colors the flowers what my house would look like what pets we would i even drew out what my husband would have and would possibly look like... I am so pathetic i know! I guess i wanted my life to be perfect in my timing and in the way that i planned it to be! But i forgot that its not my life to plan. I am Gods. He gave me this life so its not mine to plan. I know now that everything will happen in Gods perfect timing and i cant even begin to explain how much weight has been taken off my shoulders! I can say now that if things dont go the way i wanted them to be... if i dont have 6 kids ill be Great because ill know that this is what was best for me! Our God is so great and powerful! I look forward to the mystery of my life!!! I dont know what will happen in 1 hour or tomorrow or next year! I like it better that way!

Its a Wonderful Life

Its amazing the things that are taken for granted these days... For instance the cell phone is a device that the majority have in their possession. We would normally look at a cell phone as just a normal everyday thing instead of a huge blessing to have people that God blessed with this amazing brain to comprehend this complex science to make a tele device and be able to talk to someone thousands of miles away in a matter of seconds. I am one of those people who takes it for granted. I never realized exactly how much i have. I am blessed with a beautiful home and great parents who provide for me, a brother that can make me laugh when i am upset, a sister that admires me and that wants to be just like me(though i have NO idea why!), a best friend that through thick and thin loves me and has always been there for me, i have an amazing church family that i cant even put in words how great and important they are to me, and most importantly i have a God that has offered me Grace without thought Compassion without judgement and Love without question. Right now our church is doing VBS and i went into it with the mindset of "this is going to be a drag but ill just go and see if they need me to help out..." so i went today and they asked me to be a buddy for a special needs child. I agreed and i was given a little girl named Rachel who has down syndrom and has been diagnosed with cancer many times and actually just got out of the hospital which she had been living in for a month and a half. She has many scars on her head from surgery and she is very sick looking but that child has the most joyful uplifting spirit i have ever seen. When she smiles your heart stops and when she laughs you cant help but laugh too. I only spent a few hours with her today but my life is forever changed. Rachels life was almost over a few weeks ago. And by her attitude and perspective on life you would never know it. She is a huge blessing and i am proud to say i will be her buddy for the next week! I love it when God uses younger people to impact their elders. I dont want to take things for granted anymore... I want to count my blessings and celebrate them. Our God is an awesome God. He is so faithful!

Glorious Love

I love the feeling of being loved by someone. Its almost like a new relationship giddy feeling! Where you get butterflies in your stomach just from thinking about them or when they look at you you get all jumpy and excited because they noticed you! That's how i feel with God. That sounds extremely creepy but its not. When i talk to God or see something he created i cant help but feel like the luckiest person in the world to have such an amazing God. For example whenever i see a sunset i see God because i LOVE sunsets and the mixture of colors in the sky. I think of how much time God spends on making things beautiful so that i can enjoy them. Its hard to explain the joy i feel inside knowing that i have a Marvelous God that loves me so much he paints the sky different colors every single day just so that i can watch it disappear in 10 minutes. Just thinking about the unfailing love that God provides me with day by day makes my head pound. His love for us is so huge we cant wrap our minds around it. It is my dream that everyone will open their hearts to feel that love that i am blessed to feel everyday of my life. And yea there are some days that its hard to feel Gods presence but that's not Gods fault that's my own for falling away from him. I am comforted knowing that God will never leave my side, even when i am sleeping i know he is there watching over me. Phil Wickham sings "A deep deep flood an ocean that flows from you. Of deep deep love yea its filling up the room. Your innocent blood has washed my guilty life. In your presence God I'm completely satisfied." His declaration of love that paid for me and all of my stupid choices just so that i can live and go to heaven and spend the rest of eternity in paradise.

God i am not worthy of your unfailing love
or your never ending grace. Thank you for the cross.
Amen